I sit alone in the darkness,
Darkness of my living room,
I have all these thought racing,
Racing through my mind.

Many of these thoughts always come to you,
I'm lost, confused, and don't know what to do.

You made my day,
You somehow made the day begin,
You also made it end.

My life seemed to end,
The day that yours did,
I remember being anxious for you to come home,
Come home from your family visit.

I got a call that day,
Sitting in class listening to words that were meaningless,
I hit the ignore button to silence the ring,
To soon after get a text,
"Please call me, I have some news.."

I asked to be excused from class,
I press the numbers in quickly,
Anxious to hear from you.

ring.. ring.. ring..
"Kyrena..." is what I hear,
Though it's not you voice,
My hearts life beat is slowly fading,
worried...

Now here I sit alone in the dark,
Trying to find myself and move on,
Though I know I can't,
I can't quite yet.

You were my haven,
You were my hell,
You were my thought,
You were my dreams,
You were my everything.

The hot tears are streaming down my face,
Drying up and leaving no trace,
Except the streak marks upon my face,
Holding my head in the palms of my hands,
Choked up on words I never got to say.

You were my haven,
You were my hell,
You were my thought,
You were my dreams,
You were my everything.

I spend sleepless nights thinking of you,
Staring upon a wall as if it will give me answers,
Peering through the darkness,
Up at the ceiling of my bedroom,
No answer.. it's blank

I bight my trembling lip,
As I would do to my trembling mind if I could,
My body is shaking,
My chest hurts with each breath,
I feel as if I'm dying,
Just know I did my best.

You were my haven,
You were my hell,
You were my thoughts,
You were my dreams,
You were my everything.

I did my best to continue on,
To hold my tongue,
Stop my tears,
Suck it up and move on.

Now I hurt..
This pain hurts worst then all physical things,
It hurts me deeply in the mind,
It hurts to think,
It hurts to breath,
It hurts to remember,
You were my everything.

You were my haven,
You were my hell,
You were my thoughts,
You were my dreams,
You were my everything.

I need you more now,
More than I ever did,
I'm dying from the inside out,
All the way out...

I still love you,
I always will forever,
Forever and always,
Even if you aren't around.

So still,
You're so still..
You're lifeless body cold..
The glint in those grey eyes..
They stare at me with no emotion..

I still love you,
I always will forever,
Forever and always,
Even if you aren't around.

I stare back,
My breath so still,
Tears welling up again...
You stare with dead eyes..
I still stare back with emotion..
..."I'm so alone.."

You ARE my haven,
You ARE my hell,
You ARE my thought,
You ARE my dreams,
You ARE my everything.
...Still....